Day Ten of Ten (Final Day)

One thing you want to be different in your life by next year.

I'd like to be more self-reliant. Make my own money, pay for my own expenses, live in my own place. I want to be more responsible for and more in charge of my own life and have the means to do the things I want to do. I want to build my own life and my own world and take charge.

Second star to the right and straight on 'till morning. - Disney's Peter Pan

Day Nine of Ten

Two of your most favorite memories.

1. When Sean proposed to me. It was totally perfect.

2. Thanksgiving this year. The whole day was really great. We spent it at grandma and papa's, as is tradition. It was realy snowy, so Sean, Chelsea, Megan, Chloe, Madison, and I went out and had a really fun snowball fight and went sledding (in the plastic kiddie pool). At dinner we always go around the table and everybody says what they're thankful for. We saved papa for last because he usually has a lot to say about what he's thankful for. He didn't disappoint. He talked about how thankful he was for my grandma, for her taking him to and from the doctor and taking care of him as he's been sick. He teared up and told us he probably wouldn't have made it without her and made me, Chelsea, and Megan cry. It was really touching and beautiful and I'll remember it the rest of my life.

Day Eight of Ten

Three things you want to do before you die.

1. Road trip! All over the states. Road trippin' with my two favorite allies, fully loaded, we got snacks and supplies. I want to go everywhere and see everything and do amazing, unforgettable things. I want to go to all these incredible national parks and monuments, see all these great things, take pictures of everything, go to shows everywhere, rock climb, go horseback riding, kayak, hike, eat, dance, and explore.

2. Travel all through Europe. There's so much history and culture and language to discover and I really want to go and see it all.

3. Have kids. I seriously love them and I think it would be so amazing to have them and so much fun.

Day Seven of Ten

Four songs that mean a lot to you.

1. Rocky Raccoon, by The Beatles.
My mom used to sing this song (among many others) when she would tuck me into bed every night.

2. Casimir Pulaski Day, by Sufjan Stevens.
This song was playing by chance during a really hard time for me a few of the lyrics were eerily appropriate.

3. Stickshifts and Safetybelts, by Cake.
Sean wrote this song for me.

4. I Hate People, by Jemina Pearl
This was the first song on a CD Sean made for me before we were together and it's totally us.

Day Six of Ten

Five People Who Mean a Lot to You.


1. Of course, Sean.
He's the very best and my very best friend. I love him a lot and he makes me crazy insane happy.


2. Chloe.
My baby sister is also my best friend. We're bros and I like her a lot.

3. My papa.

He is so cool. He's always been the best grandpa ever. When we were young he told us scary stories, now he takes us crabbing and clamming and blackberry picking, and he makes us laugh. He and grandma have built the most amazing family and the best traditions and they bring our family together. They're the glue. My papa is very special to me and an amazing man.

4. My grandma.

This lady is legitimately the greatest grandma in the world. Like, if they had a grandma contest she would win hands down like papa would win the papa contest. My fondest childhood memories are of her and things she did. Holidays, birthdays, shopping trips, sleepovers. Pancakes in the morning, getting spoiled, Thanksgiving dinner, and Christmas dinner. Love my grandma.

5. My parents.

Best mommy and daddy ever. They're really cool, they provide what I need, they're always there. Cannot thank them enough for the childhood I had.

Other things may change us, but we start and end with family. - Anthony Brandt

Day Five of Ten

Six Things You Wish You'd Never Done.

1. Lied about it and then kept lying about it.

2. Taken those.

3. Kissed that boy.

4. Said that stupid thing.

5. Let my emotions run wild.

6. Fallen out of contact with you.


Monsters are real and ghosts are real, too. They live inside us and sometimes they win. - Stephen King

Day Four of Ten

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind a Lot.


1.














Sean

2. The future and what I want it to hold.

3. "Dude, chill the fuck out. It's gonna be fine. Stop worrying."

4. Bad memories.

5. Song lyrics, which usually come bursting out.

6. Cancer.

7. My family.

Day Three of Ten

Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Touching. Easy, casual, absentminded, loving touches.

2. Make me laugh and laugh with me.

3. Ask my opinions, ask me about the things that I like. Take interest.

4. Notice when I'm unhappy. Know me well enough to notice. I hide it well, so pay attention.

5. Be a constant surprise. Be spontaneous and random. Sweep me off my feet.

6. Make sure I know you like/love me and being with me.

7. Love the things I love. Share interests and tastes.

8. Be Sean David Wilcox.


If I love you with all of my heart, she said, what will you give me? she asked & then she stopped & said I didn't need to answer that because she was going to do it anyway. - Brian Andreas

Day Two of Ten

Nine things about yourself.
Hopefully different from the ten I wrote yesterday.

1. I am a serious perfectionist and imperfection drives me up the wall.

2. My favorite movies are Fight Club, The Boondock Saints, Donnie Darko, Beauty and the Beast, and Pride and Prejudice (the one with Keira Knightly).

3. I want a dog more than just about anything else.

4. My right ankle is permanently messed up from multiple sprains from playing volleyball.

5. I hate bananas. Except when they're bananas foster.

6. Lucky Charms and cute shoes are like crack to me.

7. I super love TV. Who cares if it rots your brain?

8. I love the ocean and everything about it and everything in it.

9. I sell myself short most of the time. For instance, I think I'm a fuckup.


L'esperienza di questa dolce vita (The experience of this sweet life) - Dante Alighieri

Because I'm Not Doing Enough Already (Day One)

Another blog challenge, which will last the next ten days.
Day 01 - Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day 02 - Nine things about yourself.
Day 03 - Eight ways to win your heart.
Day 04 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 05 - Six things you wish you'd never done.
Day 06 - Five people who mean a lot to you.
Day 07 - Four songs that mean a lot to you.
Day 08 - Three things you want to do before you die.
Day 09 - Two of your most favorite memories.
Day 10 - One thing you want to be different in your life by next year.

DAY ONE
Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. I have no words and too many, simultaneously. You astonish and astound me on the regular and love doesn't even begin to cover it. I could talk about my warm, fuzzy feelings for you forever and I do sometimes, so let's say something else right now. My heart breaks for you more than you know. It literally hurts when I think about what you went through and I would kill or die to go back in time to save you from it or just kiss everything better sooner. You will always have me and I swear I'll fill your head so full with happy memories that you forget the bad ones.

2. Fuck you, you total dick. This isn't your place and no one wants you here.

3. You need to stop trying to control everything. I know you do it out of love, but it doesn't help anything. It's just irritating.

4. I know I'm mean to you, but it's kinda my job. I'm trying to stop, though, because I love you with all my heart. Oh, tiny spoon, I'm sorry for everything I've ever done to you.

5. I heard something that makes me think you betrayed my confidence. You've never done that before, so I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt until I hear it from you, but I swear to God if you did that to me, if you betrayed my trust like that in such an outlandish way, when I know you knew I would more than hate it, I will absolutely never trust you again. I hope it was worth it just so you could meddle like you always do. You are just like your mother.

6. Stop right where you are. Take a minute to breathe. Take a minute to deal with the pain. Take a minute to feel it. Things will be better for it, I promise. I love you and everything you do for me. I hope you know that. You take such good care of me.

7. Promise me you won't die. I want you to be there forever. I can't imagine life without you.

8. What the hell, dude? What the hell? What were you thinking? Why would you do that to me? Yes, I'm bitter, how could you tell? For such a good guy, you're a serious asshole sometimes.

9. Let's be friends, please.

10. I think you're really cool, for realzies. We should try to be friends because we like each other and have fun together instead of because we're always together. We need to bond hardcore.


Tell the people you love that you love them at every opportunity. - George Carlin